Arien sits alone in his apartment, eating a bowl of stale cereal. It's a nice apartment, although it is sort of small. Bigger than his old dorm room, and it had a rather nice veiw of the freeway, from the balcony. he was all the way up on the 4th story. [[you know, it would be nice to sit of the balcony for a while, right before work.]] [[shit I gotta go, i dont wanna miss my bus]] <img src="art/apartment.jpeg" alt="image not loaded!" title="art">Airen sits on the balcony railing, watching the cars race by, all of them in their own little world with a population limited to only the people inside. They could play whatever music they wanted, or none at all. they didn't have to deal with the rest of the world. He wished that he was like them, not having to deal with life. [[shit I gotta go, i dont wanna miss my bus]] (if: (history:) contains "you know, it would be nice to sit of the balcony for a while, right before work.")[Airen managed to finally get out of the door and head for the bus. He got to the bus stop just before the bus got there. On the bus, no one talked. It was as if they didnt talk because they were afraid of disturbing other peoples silence.] (else:)[Airen got there on time, but the bus was late by at least 30 minutes. He got pissed off because he could have sat out on the balcony and relaxed, why was he in such a hurry to get here? When the bus finally arrived, he decided to have a 'talk' with the driver, but the bus driver completely ignored him. He lost confidence and shut up.] [[welp, i gotta go to work]] <img src="art/bus stop.jpeg" alt="image not loaded!" title="art">Airen got to work on time(not that it would have made a difference, the boss barely even noticed him when he was there), and he got to his desk as soon as possible. Later that day the boss called a meeting, not even anything important, just talking about his dogs as if they were his grandchildren. Fortunately, Airen was able to call it off so he could take his medication that his therapist perscribed for his nerves. He got into the bathroom and opened the pill bottle. [[he could do it right now, end it]] [[he should just take the perscribed amount]]Airen empties the entire bottle into his hand and puts the pills in his mouth. he scoops handfull after handfull of water into his mouth. But it would be a trouble for the ambulance to get him out, so he puts a finger down his throat and throws the pills back up in a coughing, gagging mess. [[i have to see my therapist later]] <img src="art/pills.jpeg" alt="image not loaded!" title="art">Airen backs out an takes the 5 perscribed pills, one after another, and gets back to work. [[i have to see my therapist later]] (if: (history:) contains "he could do it right now, end it")[At he meeting with his therapist, Airen lied to him about the dreams of a golden retriever he was having, and how he was thinking of getting one, not mentioning the incident in the bathroom. His therapist told him that if he kept it up he could stop heving sessions with him every day and go back to a normal life. He thought it was the pills that were helping, believing every word Arien said. Airen was overjoyed! he didnt have to see this phony anymore! But secretly, he wanted his therapist to see right through him and treat him like a real person.] (else:)[At he meeting with his therapist, Airen lied to him about the dreams of a golden retriever he was having, and how he was thinking of getting one. His therapist told him that if he kept it up he could stop heving sessions with him every day and go back to a normal life. He thought it was the pills that were helping, believing every word Arien said. Airen was overjoyed! He didnt have to see this phony anymore!but secretly, he wanted his therapist to see right through him and treat him like a real person.] [[oh crap! i gotta meet my girlfriend at 6!]] <img src="art/therapist.jpg" alt="image not loaded!" title="art">Airen meets up with his girlfriend (Alice) at an olive garden that evening (taki, but nice). He rants about his stupid therapist and his "cheap-ass certificate" he keeps on his wall. The entire time all he talks about is himself, and his girlfriend is starting to get annoyed. She feels used. She tries to tell him but he wont let her talk. Eventually, she walks out on him. He doesnt even notice till the waiter arrives to take their bill because he is to busy venting. [[ i should stop by the park before going home]] [[i should head home now]] <img src="art/bad date.jpg" alt="image not loaded!" title="art">Its dusk now and the park looks really peaceful. Its friday, so airen can stay out tonight. He finds a nice patch of grass right under a tree. Not many people are there, and the moon is about halfway up the sky. He stops by the local "Jackie's Liquor" for a six pack and a bottle of cheap champagne. The sky isn't clear, but it's nice and peaceful. Airen downs the first beer in 5 minutes, then chugs the next 3. He opens the champagne and takes a swig. It tastes like crap when mixed with the beer, but he drinks it anyway. He finishes off the beer and takes small sips of the champagne till he passes out staring at he moon, thinking about how everybody sees it but doesnt really acknowledge it, kind of like him. People see Airen but they dont really know him. He woke up the next day with the half empty bottle of champagne cradled in his arms. It was flat. [[i should head home now]] <img src="art/park.jpg" alt="image not loaded!" title="art">Work was just the same as every day when he got back on Monday, no one talked to him. Monday evening he bought a gun (for "safety reasons"). He went to a local olive gardens. He was the only one who sat alone; everyone else in groups of 4-20 people. He ordered some breadsticks, ate half, then left. He stayed up all night watching netflix and treating himself to a bottle of cheap wine, which he finished in an hour and a half. Work was just the same as every day on Tuesday , no one talked to him. He went to a local olive gardens. He was the only one who sat alone; everyone else in groups of 4-20 people. He ordered some breadsticks, ate half, then left. He stayed up all night watching netflix and treating himself to a bottle of cheap wine, which he finished in an hour and a half. Work was just the same as every day on Wednesday, no one talked to him. He went to a local olive gardens. He was the only one who sat alone; everyone else in groups of 4-20 people. He ordered some breadsticks, ate half, then left. He stayed up all night watching netflix and treating himself to a bottle of cheap wine, which he finished in an hour and a half. Work was just the same as every day on Thursday, no one talked to him. He went to a local olive gardens. He was the only one who sat alone; everyone else in groups of 4-20 people. He ordered some breadsticks, ate half, then left. He stayed up all night watching netflix and treating himself to a bottle of cheap wine, which he finished in an hour and a half. Work was just the same as every day on Friday, no one talked to him. He went to a local olive gardens. He was the only one who sat alone; everyone else in groups of 4-20 people. He ordered some breadsticks, ate half, then left. He stayed up all night watching netflix and treating himself to a bottle of cheap wine, which he finished in an hour and a half. On Sunday he decided to call his girlfriend to apologize. "Hey, Alice" "Hey" "Look, I'm sorry about last week" "Took you long enough to call, but I forgive you" "Yeah, it was just a really stressful day, and I just hadn't quite gotten over it. Like my boss. All he does is talk about his damn dog over the intercom. And this freakazoid next to me just its at his desk and types all day, doesnt even get up for lunch break." "well I've been doing really well" "I mean he's a robot or something I'm not even kidding!" "well I have this one veterinarian that calls my office every day-" "And my stupid freaking psychiatrist! He thinks he knows whats going on in your head just because he has a degree!" "Airen!" "I mean he says 'oh you seem to be improving really well, Airen, i think im gonna put you on some more medication'" Alice hung up. Airen never heard from her again. He had really done it this time. He tried! He tried so hard to include her in his life, but she just didn't understand! [[i dont think im gonna go to work tomorrow]] <img src="art/hqdefault.jpg" alt="image not loaded!" title="art">Airen didnt go to work the next day. or the next. he stopped working all together. but he didnt really do much else anyway. he ran out of money and was forced onto the streets. the only thing he took with him was the 9mm he bought a month before. he made it out of town and into the woods. it was a sunny day. peaceful. Airen was totally calm, knowing that he wouldnt have to see his psychiatrist anymore, or boss, girlfriend, parents, anyone. he was relieved in a way. the police found him a day later, under a tree. you see the peacefulness in his eyes. (if:(history:)contains " i should stop by the park before going home")[Despite Airens hangover, he is able to make it back to his apartment. He finds a message from his mom inviting him over for dinner Sunday. On Sunday, he gets on a train and heads to his parents house. When he gets there, he finds his parents and there pug waiting in the living room, watching tv. They didnt even get up to open the door. For dinner was roast duck with potato salad. The duck was bland and the potato salad had to much dressing on it. The entire time his parents talked about how crappy their corporate jobs were. Ocasionally they asked him about his job, but he just answered "fine".] (else:)[Airen finds a message from his mom inviting him over for dinner Sunday. On Sunday, he gets on a train and heads to his parents house. When he gets there, he finds his parents and there pug waiting in the living room, watching tv. They didnt even get up to open the door. For dinner was roast duck with potato salad. The duck was bland and the potato salad had to much dressing on it. The entire time his parents talked about how crappy their corporate jobs were. Ocasionally they asked him about his job, but he just answered "fine".] [[i should probably start heading back now]]